“Om ingen ser mig… finns jag då?” (If no one sees me… do I exist?)
A lie, perhaps. Or a spell she is trying to cast on herself. 1979 was a hinge year—punk was hardening into post-punk, the echo of the ‘70s was fading into the cold neon of the ‘80s. Maria stands in that crack. She wears a military surplus jacket and second-hand boots. She reads poetry by torchlight because her parents think she’s asleep. Jag ar Maria -1979-
“Jag är Maria. Jag är inte rädd.” (I am Maria. I am not afraid.) “Om ingen ser mig… finns jag då
Here’s a short, atmospheric, and intriguing text inspired by the phrase "Jag är Maria -1979-" . The tape hiss comes first. A soft, velvety exhale from a worn cassette recorder, the kind with a silver grille and a red light that flickered when the batteries were low. Then, the voice. Maria stands in that crack
The tape was found thirty years later in a box labeled “Misc. – Estate Sale.” No last name. No return address. Just the handwritten note on the cassette sleeve: “Jag är Maria -1979-”
We will never know what became of her. But sometimes, late at night, when the world is quiet and the radiators tick, someone plays the tape. And for twelve minutes, Maria exists again.
Unseen. Unforgotten. Unafraid.
